Heres to you...

I've recently become aquainted with quite a few (more than I'd like) recovering addicts. Im always so surprised at how people treat people like this. Everyone is always so proud of them for quitting and happy that they're finally on the right path. And while I am completely happy for them and greatful that they're no longer on the wrong path and a danger to themselves their loved ones and society as a whole. I feel like the people who NEVER went down the 'wrong' dont get enough praise. So here's to you.....
-to everyone who never started smoking cigarettes because you knew they were addictive, disgusting, and bad for you.
-to everyone who has chosen not to drink alcohol, and for those that have chosen thankyou for being responsible in your extra-curricular activities...YOU dont drive drunk, YOU dont get drunk when your home alone with your kids...
-to everyone who never tried marijuana because you knew it was a gateway drug and would probably lead to even worse things, or turn you into a lazy butt that mooched off everyone you knew.
-To everone who realizes that their life is made possible by the people who love them and think about decisions that would affect them before they choose to do something foolish

I am proud of every person who has been faced with adversity, had things not go their way, or had terrible things happen to them or done to them (which is everyone) and not chosen an easy or lazy way out.

Thankyou all

DISNEYLAND!

YAY :)...Corey and I, in our 4 nearly 5 years together, haven't even been together and I am so FREAKING excited! We're going the first weekend of March and it will be my first time going since I had my ill-advised blonde hair :)

This is Miranda and I in front of the glorious Teacups...i had an amazing video but for some reason blogspot doesnt agree with it :)....

Anyway, just thought i'd share my excitement!!! :)

I miss my Grandma...

My Grandma Haight passed away two weeks ago today...the whole thing was really rough, I've never lost anyone close to me and I didnt know how I would handle it...so far not so good.  The hardest part for me was that towards the end of her life everything was really hard, she and my grandpa had gotten in a terrible accident around 5 years ago (I mean terrible with shattered ankles and ribs, and peices of intestine needing to be removed). She also has a son she adopted, who is truly the worst human being on the planet, he stole money from them had friends come to their house and steal possesions...just terrible things...and on top of all that for the last 25 years she had excruciating pains in her face and head that came and went as they please, in order to try and fix this she had brain surgery, all of her teeth removed, continuos doctors visits and was on a TON of medication...NOTHING helped... then maybe a month or so ago we started to notice that she wasnt having them....it was because she had alzheimers and couldnt remember having them...Her alzheimers wasn't terrible, she could remember all of her kids and her life, just had trouble retaining new information....So I though FINALLY she get's a break, no pains, doesnt remember how terrible her son is...maybe she'll have a few great years. then about a week later she contracted a staff infection and passed away...I can't tell you how sad it makes me...It get even worse when I see my Grandpa. They were married for nearly 60 years, and when I saw him recently and asked how he was he replied "I'm lonely all the time, very very lonely" My grandparents are good people they raised 10 children together have loaned  money to every child grandchild or orgnization that asked, have opened their home to anyone who needed it, and about a million other things that would qualify both of them for sainthood. I certainly hope that there is a heaven and that my Grandma is the queen of it because that's what she deserves.
I'll be getting married soon and the thought of not having her there makes me sadder than you can imagine. I miss her, she was the matriarch of the family and nonone can replaces that...I hate growing up, I hate being resposible, and i dont like that I have to deal with things like death and aging loved ones... it all just makes me very sad.

Going private...

I realize that this sounds rediculous, I'm a single person i dont really have to worry about weird people looking at my kids or anything, but I just recently found someone wrote a whole post about something I wrote awhile ago that was very rude and not even accurate, this person isnt my friend I dont know her at all....I totally understanding the blogstalking stuff I do it too sometimes but I would never disrepect the complete strangers whose blogs I look at, by  making them feel bad about something they wrote...a Blog is the ONE place I think I should be able to speak my mind without having to worry about who Im making mad or offending... I write things for me (obviously) If you dont like it then dont read it!!! so I'm just going to go private to make sure these people aren't subjected to my 'cruelty'....I dont care who reads my blog I just dont want people reading it then speaking badly about me, that doesnt seem right... My blog is NOT exciting at all and Im almost positive noone reads it anyway :).BUT,  please let me know if you'd like to keep reading, regardless of who you are, and I'll add you to 'the list'.